The very last rehearsal…and it’s finally showtime. If you ask me if I’m ready for it, I would love to say that I’m all geared up to entertain the audience tomorrow. But… somehow, that’s not the case. Physically, in terms of getting the choreography right, might not be too much of a problem. But mentally, I’m drained out. Energy level depleting, immune system’s weakened, stress level increasing. The best part, after every rehearsal, there would always be critics about the rehearsals. Dance steps not executed out properly, limp expressions, wrong timing, costume clash, props missing… In short, there would always be something that went wrong during the rehearsals or something that’s not up to their standards. I’m not surprised there’re cock-ups everywhere. Continuous rehearsals, stretching till late at night…pushing every single cast to their limits, temper rising high… imagine a rubber band being stretched and stretched until it reaches it’s stretch limit and eventually…snaps. I guess we’re all like over-stretched rubber bands now and we can all snap anytime.
The last phase… we need more encouragements to get the energy level and team spirit rising up. But seeing how the debrief turned out last night really pulled us down. For me at least. Not enough in the theater, more happened at home. Come on, please! This is a crucial period for me. I seek for your understanding, at least. Is that too much to ask for..???
While my fingers are typing out these rants, that probably no one would even understand, my mind was a mess. A whole lot of stuff was going haywire in there.
But while things were quite chaotic at my side now, I’m thankful for his existence there. Seeing him there, at least sparks some motivation for me to perform well. He’s an interesting guy, with an interesting personality and incredible talent. At least that's something to look forward to and to smile about...
Meanwhile, one more rehearsal to pull through later on... Expect a lot of pushing, rushing, naggings... the list goes on... For now, just let me think of his existance in my life... and least that's making me smile, besides my trusty chocolates! =)
